My iPhone

If you read the previous post, i spent the entire weekend at home...i found out in a forum that they had finally cracked the new firmware for the iPhone..excited, i started research....to cut a LONG story short..i solved it after 6 hours. YES my iPhone is perfectly working now :D The only problem remains, which phone do i use? my trusty super functional Dopod 838pro or my pretty awesome to use, though less functional iPhone.

Must admit, at first i tot the iPhone was just a showy toy that was quite useless...it was not until i really played around with it that i realized that Apple had really come up with seriously innovative stuff! Even the SMS-ing function is different where SMSes will be sorted via person like a conversation...instead of viewing SMSes by date/time, u see them by person first then date/time..simple? yes...and highly effective.

Also another cool thing is Navicon...this online service that integrates seamlessly with the iPhone and google maps to use wifi stations with GPS and TRIANGULATE your position anywhere in the world! They were like...'click here to find your location' and i was like..YA RIGHT...but when i did...i found myself staring at my home area...i was seriously stunned...

And of course the iPhone has all the usual WOW things like awesome graphics, the acceleratron (u move it and shake it and it responds - screen flips etc.), the multi-touch LCD, its incredibly small form factor...its seriously beautiful. But it cant do things like 3G, MMS or even video...but windows with all its functionality just somehow doesn't FEEL so good...so its really a case of an inferior software...although having all the hardware behind.

To sum it up, Apple has finesse and Windows has power (and is cheaper and more widely used). Somehow this draws me to Apple..hai~

For now i've decided to use BOTH phones until i can sort this out.

It is my first 30th bday present...yes thats how old i am..hai~ THANK YOU to Abigail and my parents-in-law who bought this fantastic phone for me, i wouldn't have known how good it was otherwise.

Sinusitis

This was a terrible long weekend for me...our office declared Fri off for the holidays and i was looking forward to having a nice relaxing weekend. This was not to be so...i was already ill (flu) all of the week and was getting better...happily. But little did i know after my 'recovery', i was to be attacked by another illness!

Sinusitis attacks commonly after a cold or flu bout...reason being excess mucous from the infection cannot be drained adequately by the sinuses esp when it is aggravated by stress...i WAS very stress during that week. The slow nagging pain on my upper lip soon developed into a full blown torture...it felt as if your whole head is imploding...

luckily i rushed to the doctor and got some relief...before that i was standing under the shower nearly drowning myself forcing water through my nose just to ease the pain...it is really terrible.

I'm actually out of medicine now...having taken the last dose just 5mins ago. i have an impt meeting later...i hope i can last that long...already preparing some panadols in case.

The 3 Needs

Ever since studying HR in NUS about 7 years ago, i have been hooked on a theory (Henry Murray). It actually states that most human motivation can be defined according to 3 main needs. These are namely:

1. The need for Achievement (nAch): the need to accomplish tasks and do things
   
2. The need for Affiliation (nAff): the need to interact and be part of a group
   
3. The need for Power (nPow): the need to influence or impact people and to be in control
   

Together with other traits of introversion and extroversion, these desires would then display themselves in various forms.

In my shortsightedness or desire to simplify things, i failed to realize that there are actually exists much more than just those three. I started to think about it and then coined a new motivation...i'll call it nRlx, or rather, the need to RELAX.

I felt i did not have enough of that so basically i was a stressed up wreck the most of the time. Anyway, afterawhile, i thought that hey, what about the OPPOSITE of each motivation...i mean won't that be something as well? So here come the opposites:

1. Need for Achievement: Need for Relaxation
2. Need for Affiliation: Need for Solitude
3. Need for Power: Need for Letting Go

So basically i thought i had it all and i was brilliant etc. thats when i went to google to research this a bit more and realized...wow, there are actually 27 needs that Henry Murray came up with. Without going into any more detail as i am pondering on it myself, here they are:

Abasement	To surrender and accept punishment
Achievement	To overcome obstacles and succeed
Acquisition	To obtain possessions
Affiliation	To make associations and friendships
Aggression	To injure others
Autonomy	To resist others and stand strong
Blameavoidance	To avoid blame and obey the rules
Construction	To build or create
Contrariance	To be unique
Counteraction	To defend honor
Defendance	To justify actions
Deference	To follow a superior, to serve
Power	To control and lead others
Exhibition	To attract attention
Exposition	To provide information, educate
Harmavoidance	To avoid pain
Infavoidance	To avoid failure, shame, or to conceal a weakness
Nurturance	To protect the helpless
Order	To arrange, organize, and be precise
Play	To relieve tension, have fun, or relax
Recognition	To gain approval and social status
Rejection	To exclude another
Sentience	To enjoy sensuous impressions
Sex	To form and enjoy an erotic relationship
Similance	To empathize
Succorance	To seek protection or sympathy
Understanding	To analyze and experience, to seek knowledge

I can see how my 'opposites' fit into this...will try to dwell on it..more later :)

Some Rant

"In tiredness and weakness we must embrace, the strength and courage to win the race..." - DT

Dreams

Think of this scene:

u are in a pool of shit...there is this cool breeze blowing, u pop ur head up to breathe...the wind blows away the smell...you get a good nice long breath...ahh

then u dream...u dream of getting out...of nicer days....freedom...but in order to do so u'll have to dive into the shit headfirst and pull the plug.

u have to do a lot of running b4 u take off...

One of my favorite quirp ever is, "Why do you strap a jet engine on a motorbike?" the answer? BECAUSE WE CAN! :D

I tink sometimes we all take life too seriously that we don't enjoy it...when was the last time u did something completely random and senseless but had great fun doing it? Comment if u have :)

Kinda reminds be of this weeks hilarious episode of Ask a Ninja...you can watch it here LOL

Speaking of LOL, if you watch CSI Miami and know who Horatio (not the hamlet guy!) then you should check out this youtube vid here! ~ thanks darren! and from there i found this other one, LOL

Since im being so random already, why not check out this book by Richard Branson, 'Screw it let's do it'. Seriously it is a very cool book!!! have a look at it here you can easily find it in singapore ~ thanks eric!

Shattered Angel

cold white pieces on the dark floor
shards of what was once there before
like blissful slumber in the night
her still closed eyes betray no fight

fallen from cruel life's embrace
deeply shattered by love's quick haste
careless hands that promised care
could do naught but cause despair

be more careful with precious things!
only the deserving enjoy what beauty brings...
crimson rain melts tears from her face
the hot blood melds bonds back to grace

spread your white angel wings once more
look to the skies where you shall soar
go forth and take your phoenix flight
get up and get back to the light!

Some Rant

u know the thing abt life is that the most simplest obvious answers are usually the right ones...but 99% of the time we don't take them.

i tink its a fallacy of being human...contrary to wat we think, we are NOT logical beings
we are emotional beings. we invent our own logical matrices with convenient justifications for our ridiculous fancies based on our emotions. Thus some would argue we are still logical. Won't go into the whole idea of rationality as that requires an entire year in sociology :P Hope the point gets across though.

That being said, i don't think its all that bad. coz a purely stoic and logical life really sux :D

First Date with a Girl

Was just giving some advice to some poor guy so i'd thought since i have typed it all out already why not post it here:

There is no need to be special, do wat u feel comfortable with and that u think she will be comfortable with...impt that both parties feel relaxed so tat they can get to know each other better as that is the point rather than place/activity.

with that said, i feel movies are not too good coz interaction/communication is gone UNLESS u plan someting AFT the movie in which case u have a common topic to talk abt. anything else i guess depends on her character so try to find out wat she's like. u can even try bouncing ideas off her and discussing to see wat shes comfortable with. i tink she'll appreciate the concern u have.

some basics are:
- don't bring her to ulu ulu places as she may not er trust u so much yet (ie beaches etc.), save those for later.
- always make sure they have proper toilet facilities as ladies are not like guys and DO need better facilities (whereas for us anywhere can la!).
- make sure stuff like proper transport back (make sure u know wat time she has to be back so u dun go so far). for me, i always make sure they get back safely (walk/bring her home). not only for 1st date but all dates. coz its UR responsibility when u ask her out, so i feel u shld
- make sure she is not hungry etc. sometimes might be too pai seh to tell u
- make sure u know wat time she has to be back if she has a curfew so she wont get into trouble.

Since im on a roll now, more tots:
- if the night is going really well and u want to over extend ur date till very late, DUN. rather send her back wanting more then use the good feelings to arrange a second date. everything done too much at one go loses its impact.
- during the date, DO NOT SELL URSELF! listen to her and really try to find out what she likes, wants etc. recent holidays she go la, wat she likes to eat la (u shld know this one already!)

FINAL:
Be yourself, be honest, if she doesn't like u then its probably better that way anyway

Gr3y

starry sky filled with winter snow
dancing gracefully as winds blow
twin reflections of heavenly fate
silently patiently peacefully wait

blackest night sad shaped moon
shadows hide in the gloom
water drops of pain do fall
silver poison covers it all

freely flowing crimson blood
freezes the tears in the dark
warm love brings strength anew
hearts united forever true